You are not alone!
I met a lot of people through Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. Some of them became some of my closed friends and some of them I've never met in person yet I'm grateful to have them in my life.
I met a girl - let's call her Jane - on Instagram 14 years young and she publicly wrote that she was thinking of committing suicide. I've never met her in person but it hit me really hard. We were about 100 people that never met her but instantly connected - we all knew what we had to do. We tried talking Jane out of saying goodbye for good. We let her know that she is loved and that we are all there for her. I felt helpless sitting behind my screen and all I could do was text her ...
What do you do if you don't even know there real names or have any idea where they live. A stranger and yet it hit us all very hard. We tried to reach that girl all friday night and finally got confirmation the next morning that she was ok. It was a relieve to hear she was ok but I also started asking myself ...
Why is it that so many young people want to commit suicide? Why is it that we are drawn to people that we can't reach? Why is it that we push away the people that want to be in our lifes?
I know how Jane felt. I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people out there that felt like Jane at least once in their life. I also wanted to disappear - not kill myself - just disappear to make a fresh cut and start over ... I wanted to see who wants to stay in my life ... but I couldn't just leave ... I know that there are people out there that love me and some even need me. A while ago I wanted to give up everything I worked so hard for just to start over ...
- I've seen things that weren't meant for my eyes
- I've heard things that weren't meant for my ears
- I've experienced things that I'd rather forget
- I've been bullied
- I've done things I'm not proud of
BUT all these things made me to the person I am today. Yes life sucks sometimes. Life is hard and can be very challenging but it has also its good moments. We all should hold on to those moments. You have to take the good with the bad.
I know people that did commit suicide and I know people that tried it more than once. Suicide is not a solution! Suicide doesn't change anything! Yes running away and maybe saying goodbye seems such a great idea sometimes but the problem wouldn't change. If you commite suicide there is no turning back ...
To everyone out there. Please talk to family or friends. We all need to start listening more. We all need to pay attention to the people around us. Everyone has a bad day once in a while. Stay strong. You are not alone.
If you need someone to talk to - I'm here. Email me antjeslife@gmail.com I will listen.
Take my hand and we will get through this together!